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For years, literally until I ceased contact with you, you had no issue repeating and repeating and repeating the stories that you had. Stories? Yes, stories… ‘Do you remember when you lived in the trailer? Well, he told me when I was over one day that he had left an insurance policy to me, and […]

I knew when I started this that it would be a really difficult journey. So many times I ve thought about it, plugged in the laptop, and just couldn’t bring my self to open another wound while dealing with one right in front of me in real life. Been sick for a few weeks now, […]

1990 ish…. I wasn’t perfect, made some mistakes. I had moved out of the house at 18, and got into some financial trouble. Like inexperienced kids do. To get my shit together, dad said I needed to move home. I was in a really bad part of St Catherines in an absolute dumpster of an […]

1983-1984 I’m leaving his name out of this, because what he did for me wouldn’t be remotely acceptable these days. I was on probation from Grade 7 to Grade 8. My home life and the bullying were costing me by education, I was struggling. The mother kept my report cards from elementary school, and I […]

A summer afternoon in 2021 Went to the mother’s apartment for a glass of wine, and I think a birthday something… Martha was there. Working on something for the mother. She took one look at me. “Oh my goodness Tonya, how are you?’ I looked at her bewildered. “I’m fine, thanks how are you?” “Oh […]

Ugh, this one is going to take a while. School Years will likely be multiple posts, over many many years. But this one came back to me after almost 30 years, and it hasn’t left. It needs to come here, to be said, and to be left behind. It was June 1989. Grade 12 graduation […]

NOTE: ORGINAL POST STARTED SEPT 23, 2021, COMPLETED MARCH 2023. My dad died last week. He died alone, in a hospital, peacefully in his sleep. That’s what they told me. All he wanted was to outlive his dad, he felt that Poppa hadn’t had enough time. He did outlive him, by a number of years. […]

Everytime I try to write, the emotions take hold. And i slam don the lid to the laptop. The emotions take over. I guess I m more damaged than I thought. None of these posts will be in order. They will be how I recall them. Come for the ride and appreciate the journey, or […]

I have often been told I have enough life experiences, I should write a book. I always reply with, ‘they’d never believe me’. The universe has made its message clear. I cannot be my true self and move forward if I continue to carry the past. I will blog, much of it won’t be in […]