I have often been told I have enough life experiences, I should write a book. I always reply with, ‘they’d never believe me’.
The universe has made its message clear.
I cannot be my true self and move forward if I continue to carry the past. I will blog, much of it won’t be in order, most of it won’t make sense to many…. you don’t need to understand, or appreciate it. These are my experiences, my thoughts, and my feelings. And for the first time in my life, I have stood up for them, and not pushed them to the side to keep others happy. Ensuring others happiness, while ignoring my own has cost me more than I can care to talk about. It’ll come out, one at a time, and then they’ll be a memory. I have to leave them, however, I have to treat them carefully as I say goodbye. They have shaped the person I am today, and they shape the rest of my life. However, they have destroyed me as much as they have shaped me. They will get their respectful ‘adios’ and be let go for bigger and better adventures.
If you happen to stay a while and read, welcome. If you are here to snoop, critique and diminish my experiences, thoughts and feelings… move on. You are not welcome here, we’ve experienced enough of this to last a lifetime. I’m not here for sympathy. I’m simply putting my past out to the universe and opening myself to new beginnings, better endings, and a hope that I can finally leave everything and everyone where they belong, in my rearview mirror.
Please have some patience with the way we look. I have been staring at the computer for weeks now, knowing that this process had to start. Everytimme I did, it made me feel sick.
Opening old wounds is never easy. and I ve got 50 years of them.
Creating this rough start is progress. As it grows, it will include photos, thoughts, feelings and replace all the pre-fab the blog page came with.